jueves, 24 de marzo de 2011

If I would only remember

If I would only remember what I was thinking about yesterday while trying to get asleep…. If I could only reproduce here the torrent of words that came to my mind, forming an insane story about spirits, merits, adventures and discredits gained by different characters in their crazy attempt to deserve a place in history.

Those were good times when it was easy to come up with a new idea, when pretty much everything was yet to discover for humankind and brilliant minds appeared every now and then under the shape of scientists, journalists, or any other sort of advance professionals.

How have we come to this point in time? How have we left our own experiences and desires be the grave for our future? How can we be so blind?

If I could only remember how it was when, as I child, I was planning what to do in the year 2000, I would perhaps refurbish my plans, recreate my life and let ideas spring freshly again…

Now everything seams to be over, even If I know the whole thing has just started. Now, having a little jewel I will never be able to really deserve, it comes to me so easily the forgotten set of self conceived limitations that affected me back in the past, and all I would like to achieve in life as of today is letting her be free of them, or any other similar…

I guess everyone who is a parent feels the same way, but nevertheless it keeps on being a concern for me as if there was no other girl in the world but her.

Now here is the train, and the landscape… and this feeling of being tired that prevents me from smiling…. I wish I was not here even if in the past I enjoyed traveling a lot… not any more because of the frequency, and most of all because of the certainty that what I leave behind every time I am away is precious… is a perfect slice of time and experience I will never have the chance to live again, even If I can live other similar ones… never again.

Sucede